hiya guys! its been a while since ive written in my blog and im sorry if everyone that im helping has felt like i have just given up, i havent, i have just had so much going on i havent physically had the time to write anything! im on new medication now, i started on resperidoan (not sure how to spell it) for anxiety and now im on an anti depressent called cetalopram (not sure how to spell that either) and im slowly on the route to recovery. im on drop form on 4mg at the moment and will be going up to 6mg tomorrow. eventually i will be on 10mg tablet form and ive started on such a low dose to reduce side affects.
i still get the tight throat symptom and the occasional dizziness but mainly at the moment i am battling with food. i struggle to eat as i panic everytime i eat that there is shellfish inmy food, as some of you are aware i am allergic to shellfish so i panic majourly if there is any near me. i have silly things like kfc which ive been eating all my life and i worry incase someone has touched the food after handling shellfish. i dont even know why i get so panicky over this and im slowly trying to gain confidence when eating food, but unfortunately its gone on to drinks now and i get nervous and anxious about drinking from the same cup as someone else! i even get nervous about kissing my boyfriend who doesnt like shellfish! its silly but hopefully when i up my medication to 6mg drops it will slowly start to improve.
its been tough but i can actually manage to stay out of the house if its neccisary now and panicking drains me so its easier for me to sleep at night. there has been a massive improvement since i last wrote on this blog but im still not 100%. i hope everyone who is going through anxiety gets helps as fast as they possibly can because its been four months and im still not 100% better, and i got help almost straight away, so if you leave it months before you get help i can only assume that the affects will last longer. of course some people are a lot more strong minded and understand anxiety and depression a lot more than i do and many others do, so will get through it quicker, but if your like me and still struggle to gain an understanding of anxiety or depression after motnhs of feeling like this, it is a hard thing to understand but it does get easier especially if you have someone to talk to about it.
one thing i really would advise is to avoid searching side affects to medication online etc as if your on medication and look at bad side affects that scare you, you will end up convincing your mind that these things are actually happening to you when the medication isnt actyually causing this.
baileydancer117 